I cannot believe its Wednesday already! I swear I write a post and then bam its Wednesday again and I need to think of something awesome to write about! I get at least one message a week from someone, “where is your blog post for this week?”, which makes me extremely happy because you remember I write them on Wednesday and want to read more. BUT this message always makes me angry at myself because nine times out of ten, I have forgotten about it. I have just been so busy doing nothing this week! Im sure many of you can relate to this!
Anyways, I have had a pretty big week, but the biggest thing was starting a new job. How daunting is this!!! I don’t know why, but it is one of the most scariest and nerve-racking things ever. Who else has this feeling? Like we do things that are so much more nerve-racking, yet there is something about a new job that is scary. Am I going to like it? Will the people be nice? Will they like me? Will I be a nuisance? All these questions are buzzing through my head as I enter the new swim school that I was lucky enough to get a job at. Walking through those doors is the worst part. Once you are through the doors, its a breeze.
Tonight I had my first official shift. I was petrified. But as soon as I walked through those doors and got into the pool, I was fine. It was like a sense of relief. I can actually do this. I AM doing this. And then you realise half way through your shift that you will actually really enjoy working here and you had nothing to worry about. So ALL that prior worrying was for nothing. But if you are not worried, are you human? I think this is an instinct that we all have. We are all scared that we are not the right person for the job. My biggest fear is not knowing anyone. I HATE going somewhere where I don’t know anyone. I know this is stupid, but I can’t help it. However, I have learnt to conquer this fear, because I simply have to. I cannot live life not doing or going to things because I don’t know anyone. I would end up alone, inside for the rest of my life. And that would be awful!
I guess in these blog posts, I like to share my feelings and fears. A lot of us don’t like to do this because we are scared what others might think. But we shouldn’t. Everyone has fears. Everyone is scared. Its normal. DO NOT put yourself down or make yourself feel bad because you are scared of heights and none of your friends are. Im sure they are scared of things that you may not be scared of. I’m petrified of cats. I absolutely hate them (sorry if this offends anyone!). But for someone who is scared of cats, travelling around the Greek Islands last year was probably not the best idea. They were EVERYWHERE. And I mean everywhere! They even came into our hotel room in Paros. Definitely not my favourite part of the trip. Anyways, I had to face this fear, and I can reassure you know that I still hate and am petrified of cats!!
On another note, regarding nerves, I had two people very close to me who decided to participate in the ‘World’s Greatest Shave’. A big congrats to my cousin Mason and close friend Sam for doing such a selfless thing for those suffering with Leukaemia. You both raised so much money for this wonderful cause and I am so proud! I wish I had the strength to do this, but I don’t. I will just continue to donate instead. Which is what you should all do! If you know of anyone who has participated in the shave, donate! I’m sure you all know someone who has suffered with Leukaemia and providing extra funds and support to find a cure who help a lot of families in Australia.
Just a little side note to end, but I will be in Bali next week – cannot wait! So there may potentially be no blog post next week 😦 I will see how I go! So if not, stay tuned for the next post in two weeks. Enjoy the rest of your holidays, and if you’re at school, enjoy your holidays. Take time out for you. Relax. Read that book you have been meaning to read for three years! XX