a major decision

hello and welcome back! Its been a long time since my last post – i’m sorry, but I guess life has just taken over me right now and haven’t been able to find the time or be in the right frame of mind to write something worth reading.

So here in SA it is the long weekend. Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE long weekends. That extra day off just makes the rest of the week so much better. But this weekend was different. I did absolutely nothing. And yes, for many this sounds nice, but for me, I am feeling lonely. I have no family in the same state as me (expect Brod – but lucky for him, he actually has a social life) and recently this has been harder than ever. My parents have jetted off around Australia and the remaining family I have is in Perth. Yes, I do have friends, but being around family is different. I have missed out on lots. I have missed many birthdays, christmases, special events etc, that I am done. I am sick of missing out. I am over having tours of new houses through snapchat and I am sick of celebrating Christmas with family over FaceTime.

For many reading, I am sure you are trying to relate to this. You may not be close with your family and that is fine, but that isn’t the case for me. I feel I have grown apart from family, simply because I only get to see them once or twice a year. So much has happened and I have missed out on so much.

I do love SA, it has been a great place to grow up, but i’m ready to leave. You know when you have the feeling that you have outgrown a place? That is how I feel about Adelaide. I had outgrown the Riverland and moved to Adelaide and now I have outgrown Adelaide. I am ready to move back home. Home to Perth.

Like I have said, I have missed my family immensely, but I have also missed the strawberries grown in Wanneroo. They are the BEST strawberries you can ever eat – but lucky for me, I can sometimes purchase them here in SA! If you’re an avid strawberry lover like me, be sure to look out for the Wanneroo grown strawberries at the supermarket – they will not disappoint! (Plus this was not sponsored by Wanneroo strawberries!!)

So, this post was basically to enlighten everyone on my decision to move back to Perth. I am ready to be back with my family, the yummy strawberries and to be able to explore Perth as an adult. And plus, I feel I need to go to Rottnest. Like I lived in Perth for like 10 years and never went…. Anyways, I will be moving at the beginning of next year, when I have finished my degree (lord help me)

I know many are aware of my decision, but I kinda forgot to tell my bestie Tilly and thought she knew, and she didn’t (whoops, soz), and so I wanted to tell you all!!! So if you have never been to Perth before, you should really come and visit me. I promise you will love it! XX

Am I a stranger?

I really struggled to jot down my thoughts onto paper (or in this case, my laptop) this week. I have so many ideas of what I what to write and share with you, but for some reason, I just couldn’t find the words or motivations this week.

I was lucky enough to attend the St Ann’s Open Show last weekend (I make this sound like it is an exclusive event!). It was here that I started to think and realise what I was doing there. For the first time in the long time, I felt like a stranger in my own (former) home. For the place I had called home for 2.5 years, no longer felt like it. I knew many people there, but still felt like a stranger. Why? Why was I feeling so disconnected?

I think I took my years at college for granted. I made the besets friends, shared the greatest experiences and got to do a lot of things I could only dream about. This was really a home away from home for me. But why was I a stranger all of a sudden?

I spent most of the night looking (and chasing after) my friend Ryan, who decided to consume his yearly alcohol intake in one night. It was here, constantly walking around that I really felt like I didn’t belong. Was it because I wasn’t sharing this experience with my close friends? I began to realise that it was the friends and experiences that made my college experience unforgettable, rather than the physical presence of the college.

Dont get me wrong, I wouldn’t change my college experience at all. Those 2.5 years really shaped me into the person I am today. Independent – which is something you really need when you move out on your own. I matured a lot during my time there. Starting off as an innocent 18 year old, with big dreams and no money. To a 20 year old girl still with big dreams and no money, except later on that year I was making my dreams come true.

Which leads me to my American college experience. Living on campus at Buff State was sooo different to St Ann’s. From the rooms, people and excessive amount of rules. I definitely felt more like a stranger in these dorms rather than at St Ann’s. But again, these experiences have helped me to realise just how lucky I am. I was fortunate enough to attend college in both Australia and America, something others can only dream about. I think a lot of us takes these experiences for granted. We expect them. But what would my life be like and how would I be if I wasn’t fortunate enough to have these opportunities? I can tell you right now I would be very rich, probably with my own island and private jet. I’ll keep on dreaming though.

Although I thought I would enjoy my night at college on Saturday a lot more (it was a great party btw), I was extremely happy and overwhelmed with the amount of people I saw who said “I read your blog”. This truly is the best compliment I can receive, as I am still a little bit scared and nervous to write this. Scared that no one is going to like what I am saying, or they simply think I am a terrible writer and should stop – (please let me know if this is the case!!!).

Please remember to appreciate all the successes and opportunities you have received. These have made you into the person you are today, for the better! xxxx