a catch up

hello my friends, I am so sorry that I didn’t write a post last week. I am still trying to sort out this whole balance thing. Have been super busy and just not really coping, but ill get there. Anyways, I thought I would just check in, ya know.

Mothers Day. A day to celebrate and appreciate everything that our mums do for us, including the laundry, dishes, cooking etc. One of the hardest parts about moving out of home, apart from not seeing the parents everyday, was having to do my own washing and household jobs (still not 100% sure on how to wash a bathroom, but i’ll get there). Mother’s Day this year was special. Mum and I did the big 7.4km walk at the Mother’s Day classic here in Adelaide. Not only was I pretty knackered at the end, but it was a super fun walk, something that I got to experience with my mum. A few close friends of mine, as well as many others, are no longer able to spend Mother’s Day with their mums. That is why, you need to make every Mother’s Day (as well as every other day) special.

My parents have decided to pack up and travel around Australia for the rest of the year. I am very excited for them, don’t get me wrong, but they are taking the dog away. How could you?? Just joking… but how cool is this? I would love to just pack up my life and spend the year on the road. But I am only 21, I just need a little more money and like be 40 before I can even think about doing something like this. I just have so many plans in my life that I want to do within the next 2 years. Like I know I have the rest of my life, but I just cant bare to wait that long. Anyone else like this? A positive for me though is that I can go and visit them, wherever they may be. I am thinking Brisbane in July? Anyone know of any cool brunch places in Brissy (priorities hah).

I can reassure that my life is pretty well back on track now – am loving this extra flow of cash into my bank account! This weeks post is only short (I know, sorry!), but important. If you haven’t told your mum, dad, brother, sister, dog, fish or cat (ew) that you love & appreciate them lately, DO IT. Unfortunately, anything can happen at any time. OR your parents can just decide to leave you, who knows!

Thanks for having a read, I do really appreciate it! If you have anything you would like me to talk about etc, please let me know! I am kinda running out of decent content!!! XXXX

have a chat with me

Well, I was wondering how long it would last. As you’re probably aware, it is Friday, not Wednesday! You know when you’re like ‘I will just do it tomorrow’ once and then every time after that you do the same thing? Yeah thats what I have done lol. I hope to get back into it next week and write on Wednesday (but lets just wait and see!).

This post is more like a little chit chat, rather than my usual stuff. I feel like I am running out of decent content, but still want to write something. All the things I wanted to write about, I have already written about, so I just have to go on more holidays (lol) to get more ideas and inspiration. Am I right? yes.

So this week, I started my new job (yay!), but I have been struggling with the whole balancing work, life, friends etc. For some reason I have just been super exhausted. Like I know I am only working shifts of like 2.5 hours, but I am spending the whole time in the pool, in chlorine and this just makes me super tired. I literally finish at 6pm and then by 8pm I am dead. What is wrong with me?

So many of you know just how cruisy uni has been for me this semester. Like I literally feel like I do nothing, but there isn’t much more for me to do. Like I cant just make up work for me to do – why would I do that anyways? I had an assignment due tonight – I have finished thank god, but I was like stressing majorly about it. I dedicated most of Wednesday, Thursday night and like all of today to do it, but just couldn’t find the motivation. I went out for brunch this morning because priorities, and then came home and smashed it out in like 3 hours. I swear I produce my best work under pressure, on the day it is due. Anyone else like this? I think you have to be super motivated and passionate about the topic or assignment to finish it early. I am at that stage though where I am just so sick of studying and am ready to be an adult and have a full time job. I bet though in like a year when I actually have to work and adult properly I will be wishing I was back at uni. I guess you just cant win hey?

Anyways, where I was going with the last paragraph is that I now have to balance uni with work. I know I have a pretty laid back semester, but I still need to find time to complete assignments, attend uni and do the work. Unfortunately, you need to do the work to pass, who knew? Because I have been super tired this week, my uni work has kind of become the last priority, as I am valuing sleep and food higher than study. I think it will take me a few weeks to get into a routine and to become more organised to be able to balance work, uni and life. I am LOVING the money though. Don’t you just hate it when money just keeps going out of your account but nothing comes in? That was me for like 3 months. But now I have to pay a stupid parking fine – there goes my first pay check. Who knew that parking in a bike lane (whoops, I should learn to read signs) would cost $263. Like what? I would like the council to tell me why the fine is so much and would possibly could make this fine so high. This is absurd.

Anyways, thanks again for reading and I’m sorry this is a bit of a different and messy post, but I just really like writing. Also shout out to the Buff State rugby team for not inviting us to your formal, I’m very upset, but I hope you had a fab night – even without the foreigners @heidi, @nicola.

Love ya all xxx

 

Why is a new job so daunting?

I cannot believe its Wednesday already! I swear I write a post and then bam its Wednesday again and I need to think of something awesome to write about! I get at least one message a week from someone, “where is your blog post for this week?”, which makes me extremely happy because you remember I write them on Wednesday and want to read more. BUT this message always makes me angry at myself because nine times out of ten, I have forgotten about it. I have just been so busy doing nothing this week! Im sure many of you can relate to this!

Anyways, I have had a pretty big week, but the biggest thing was starting a new job. How daunting is this!!! I don’t know why, but it is one of the most scariest and nerve-racking things ever. Who else has this feeling? Like we do things that are so much more nerve-racking, yet there is something about a new job that is scary. Am I going to like it? Will the people be nice? Will they like me? Will I be a nuisance? All these questions are buzzing through my head as I enter the new swim school that I was lucky enough to get a job at. Walking through those doors is the worst part. Once you are through the doors, its a breeze.

Tonight I had my first official shift. I was petrified. But as soon as I walked through those doors and got into the pool, I was fine. It was like a sense of relief. I can actually do this. I AM doing this. And then you realise half way through your shift that you will actually really enjoy working here and you had nothing to worry about. So ALL that prior worrying was for nothing. But if you are not worried, are you human? I think this is an instinct that we all have. We are all scared that we are not the right person for the job. My biggest fear is not knowing anyone. I HATE going somewhere where I don’t know anyone. I know this is stupid, but I can’t help it. However, I have learnt to conquer this fear, because I simply have to. I cannot live life not doing or going to things because I don’t know anyone. I would end up alone, inside for the rest of my life. And that would be awful!

I guess in these blog posts, I like to share my feelings and fears. A lot of us don’t like to do this because we are scared what others might think. But we shouldn’t. Everyone has fears. Everyone is scared. Its normal. DO NOT put yourself down or make yourself feel bad because you are scared of heights and none of your friends are. Im sure they are scared of things that you may not be scared of. I’m petrified of cats. I absolutely hate them (sorry if this offends anyone!). But for someone who is scared of cats, travelling around the Greek Islands last year was probably not the best idea. They were EVERYWHERE. And I mean everywhere! They even came into our hotel room in Paros. Definitely not my favourite part of the trip. Anyways, I had to face this fear, and I can reassure you know that I still hate and am petrified of cats!!

On another note, regarding nerves, I had two people very close to me who decided to participate in the ‘World’s Greatest Shave’. A big congrats to my cousin Mason and close friend Sam for doing such a selfless thing for those suffering with Leukaemia. You both raised so much money for this wonderful cause and I am so proud! I wish I had the strength to do this, but I don’t. I will just continue to donate instead. Which is what you should all do! If you know of anyone who has participated in the shave, donate! I’m sure you all know someone who has suffered with Leukaemia and providing extra funds and support to find a cure who help a lot of families in Australia.

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How good does Sam look with no hair!!

Just a little side note to end, but I will be in Bali next week – cannot wait! So there may potentially be no blog post next week 😦 I will see how I go! So if not, stay tuned for the next post in two weeks. Enjoy the rest of your holidays, and if you’re at school, enjoy your holidays. Take time out for you. Relax. Read that book you have been meaning to read for three years! XX

Am I a stranger?

I really struggled to jot down my thoughts onto paper (or in this case, my laptop) this week. I have so many ideas of what I what to write and share with you, but for some reason, I just couldn’t find the words or motivations this week.

I was lucky enough to attend the St Ann’s Open Show last weekend (I make this sound like it is an exclusive event!). It was here that I started to think and realise what I was doing there. For the first time in the long time, I felt like a stranger in my own (former) home. For the place I had called home for 2.5 years, no longer felt like it. I knew many people there, but still felt like a stranger. Why? Why was I feeling so disconnected?

I think I took my years at college for granted. I made the besets friends, shared the greatest experiences and got to do a lot of things I could only dream about. This was really a home away from home for me. But why was I a stranger all of a sudden?

I spent most of the night looking (and chasing after) my friend Ryan, who decided to consume his yearly alcohol intake in one night. It was here, constantly walking around that I really felt like I didn’t belong. Was it because I wasn’t sharing this experience with my close friends? I began to realise that it was the friends and experiences that made my college experience unforgettable, rather than the physical presence of the college.

Dont get me wrong, I wouldn’t change my college experience at all. Those 2.5 years really shaped me into the person I am today. Independent – which is something you really need when you move out on your own. I matured a lot during my time there. Starting off as an innocent 18 year old, with big dreams and no money. To a 20 year old girl still with big dreams and no money, except later on that year I was making my dreams come true.

Which leads me to my American college experience. Living on campus at Buff State was sooo different to St Ann’s. From the rooms, people and excessive amount of rules. I definitely felt more like a stranger in these dorms rather than at St Ann’s. But again, these experiences have helped me to realise just how lucky I am. I was fortunate enough to attend college in both Australia and America, something others can only dream about. I think a lot of us takes these experiences for granted. We expect them. But what would my life be like and how would I be if I wasn’t fortunate enough to have these opportunities? I can tell you right now I would be very rich, probably with my own island and private jet. I’ll keep on dreaming though.

Although I thought I would enjoy my night at college on Saturday a lot more (it was a great party btw), I was extremely happy and overwhelmed with the amount of people I saw who said “I read your blog”. This truly is the best compliment I can receive, as I am still a little bit scared and nervous to write this. Scared that no one is going to like what I am saying, or they simply think I am a terrible writer and should stop – (please let me know if this is the case!!!).

Please remember to appreciate all the successes and opportunities you have received. These have made you into the person you are today, for the better! xxxx

 

oh what a… weekend!

Well, what a weekend I just had. Here in South Australia, we were fortunate enough to have a long weekend (I love public holidays!) this weekend. So my family and I decided to jet over to Perth for the weekend for my cousins wedding.

As many of you are thinking, how in the world can I afford all this travel? Is she ever home? Well I can assure you that I am pretty broke at the moment (if you know of any jobs going at the moment, would love to hear from you) and no, I’m never home. Like I mentioned in my first post, I have really struggled to stay settled since returning from my big trip and I’m not actually too phased by this. I get so much joy from looking at flights and basically planning a whole entire trip and then not going on it. It’s my favourite procrastination activity – I really should become a travel agent hey.

Anyways, the wedding. So, the wedding was in Dunsborough, south of Perth. If Dunsborough isn’t on your bucket list – put it there. This place is amazing!! Apart from attending the wedding (obviously), I spent the weekend by the beach, bike riding, drinking coffee, paddle boarding, kayaking and more coffee. It was just pretty. Like I cant really put it in words – you will just have to check it out yourself!

like how gorg is this beach!!

In this gorgeous seaside town, is a little winery where the wedding was held. It was very pretty and picturesque – like a postcard really! We all had such an awesome night, dancing, drinking, eating, dancing and then drinking again of course. P.S. sorry Melissa for making you keep up with me – I guess not all of us can wake up feeling great!!!!

It wasn’t until Sunday night/Monday morning, where we found out that some bug had torn through the wedding, making a lot of us sick, me included. So, I spent most of Monday morning in the bathroom, by the toilet and then napping on the bathroom floor as I was too weak and sick to go back to bed. Was quite horrible really. BUT, the worst part was that I was actually supposed to be flying home that day. Pretty hard when I struggled to stand/sit up without feeling like I had to vom (gross). Sooo after a long phone call with Jetstar, much contemplation and an excessive amount of money spent, I changed my flight to the next day (thank goodness). And to my happiness, I woke up Tuesday morning feeling a lot better – but accidentally passed on the bug to my cousin Mitchell (sorry!!!).

Congrats again Hayley & Otis – and thank you for letting me be apart of your big day xxxxxx

do I really need a career?

I just want to start off this post by thanking everyone who gave my first blog a read. I am so overwhelmed with all the comments and messages I received from my first post. I seriously thought that maybe 5 people would read it, but I got like 10 (just joking, got a few more than that!!). Anyways, I am super excited for where this is going and I hope you are too!

Last week was my first week back at uni and I am already stressed. I have to admit, I have a pretty chill timetable and only have to be at uni twice a week, BUT this does not mean I have any less work (other education students can agree with this). I have spent this last week organising myself, writing EVERY single due date and important date in my diary and tossing up whether to buy that super expensive textbook or not (will I really use it? Let’s be honest here). My parents can contest that I am a very organised person, but I only stay organised to make myself feel better. Being organised makes me feel like I can do anything. That I am on top of the world. That I will get that HD. But in reality, this is far from the truth.

I work super hard to get decent-good grades. I am that student who spends hours trying to perfect that assignment. Finishing my assignments, a week before they are due (over-achiever), to give me enough time to proof read. This is the aim. This barely happens. But the thought is there. I am an almost last minute assignment writer. As in, I finish the assignment a day or two before it’s due. I’m sure most people reading this can relate to this!

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#inspirational

My views of university were challenged when attending college in America. Sorry to any American friends reading this, but college is super easy compared to university here in Australia. However, I found the courses I took to be a lot more relatable, interactive and enjoyable than the courses I have taken here in Australia. Although I don’t 100% agree with the American college system (all those general education courses!!), I think they have it right. Except the cost of college, that is just ridiculous.

BUT my college experience has made me appreciate university here in Australia a lot more. I am super privileged to be able to attend university and pursue the career I have always dreamt about. I’m sure many others (like me), complain, moan and repeatedly say that you’re going to drop out and just work full time (seems like the easier option). However, we should be grateful that we are given this opportunity and take every opportunity thrown our way. If you are able to study abroad – DO IT. If you’re able to volunteer for something relating to your course and career – DO IT. And just enjoy your university/college days. It will be over as soon as you know it and soon you will be forced to become a proper adult and actually work full time and save for a house, car, buy food, pay bills etc. It’s a scary world out there.

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there was just something about going to uni in the snow!

Good luck to everyone heading back to uni, school (you should be more than settled in now) or a new job – shout out to you KK, you go girl! XX