Why is a new job so daunting?

I cannot believe its Wednesday already! I swear I write a post and then bam its Wednesday again and I need to think of something awesome to write about! I get at least one message a week from someone, “where is your blog post for this week?”, which makes me extremely happy because you remember I write them on Wednesday and want to read more. BUT this message always makes me angry at myself because nine times out of ten, I have forgotten about it. I have just been so busy doing nothing this week! Im sure many of you can relate to this!

Anyways, I have had a pretty big week, but the biggest thing was starting a new job. How daunting is this!!! I don’t know why, but it is one of the most scariest and nerve-racking things ever. Who else has this feeling? Like we do things that are so much more nerve-racking, yet there is something about a new job that is scary. Am I going to like it? Will the people be nice? Will they like me? Will I be a nuisance? All these questions are buzzing through my head as I enter the new swim school that I was lucky enough to get a job at. Walking through those doors is the worst part. Once you are through the doors, its a breeze.

Tonight I had my first official shift. I was petrified. But as soon as I walked through those doors and got into the pool, I was fine. It was like a sense of relief. I can actually do this. I AM doing this. And then you realise half way through your shift that you will actually really enjoy working here and you had nothing to worry about. So ALL that prior worrying was for nothing. But if you are not worried, are you human? I think this is an instinct that we all have. We are all scared that we are not the right person for the job. My biggest fear is not knowing anyone. I HATE going somewhere where I don’t know anyone. I know this is stupid, but I can’t help it. However, I have learnt to conquer this fear, because I simply have to. I cannot live life not doing or going to things because I don’t know anyone. I would end up alone, inside for the rest of my life. And that would be awful!

I guess in these blog posts, I like to share my feelings and fears. A lot of us don’t like to do this because we are scared what others might think. But we shouldn’t. Everyone has fears. Everyone is scared. Its normal. DO NOT put yourself down or make yourself feel bad because you are scared of heights and none of your friends are. Im sure they are scared of things that you may not be scared of. I’m petrified of cats. I absolutely hate them (sorry if this offends anyone!). But for someone who is scared of cats, travelling around the Greek Islands last year was probably not the best idea. They were EVERYWHERE. And I mean everywhere! They even came into our hotel room in Paros. Definitely not my favourite part of the trip. Anyways, I had to face this fear, and I can reassure you know that I still hate and am petrified of cats!!

On another note, regarding nerves, I had two people very close to me who decided to participate in the ‘World’s Greatest Shave’. A big congrats to my cousin Mason and close friend Sam for doing such a selfless thing for those suffering with Leukaemia. You both raised so much money for this wonderful cause and I am so proud! I wish I had the strength to do this, but I don’t. I will just continue to donate instead. Which is what you should all do! If you know of anyone who has participated in the shave, donate! I’m sure you all know someone who has suffered with Leukaemia and providing extra funds and support to find a cure who help a lot of families in Australia.

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How good does Sam look with no hair!!

Just a little side note to end, but I will be in Bali next week – cannot wait! So there may potentially be no blog post next week 😦 I will see how I go! So if not, stay tuned for the next post in two weeks. Enjoy the rest of your holidays, and if you’re at school, enjoy your holidays. Take time out for you. Relax. Read that book you have been meaning to read for three years! XX

Am I an Australian Buffalonian?

What, no! Its not Wednesday already? I swear the weeks are just going by so fast, that I cannot keep track. Is anyone else feeling like this? It’s almost the mid-semester break (or holidays) for us here in South Australia. I swear I was only just on holidays!

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how relevant!

To be completely honest with you all, I wrote some of this earlier in the week and then just left it unfinished. And then I got a message from a friend, “have you done your post for your blog?” (thanks for reminding me Marc!). Although I was super impressed he remembered I post every Wednesday, it also made me feel like I mattered. That people are reading and enjoying my posts every week. I was just going to leave it until tomorrow (have had a bit of a rough day), but don’t want to disappoint my readers (and fans!) so here you go …

I thought I would write a little about my time studying in America because I have been getting loads of questions. When I returned home, people ask me “so how was your trip?” and all I could reply with was “it was good, I had so much fun”. Most times, people would say “is that all?”. The fact was, that was the only way I could summarise my time overseas. Unless you had approximately four hours to spare, this was all you were getting!

I had THE BEST time overseas. Don’t believe me? Just have a look at my Instagram! I seriously cannot explain the time I had. From eating bagels, joining the rugby team, making new friends, having to buy a jacket that will keep me warm in the minus temperatures and being around snow regularly were just some of the great experiences I was able to see and do. I have to admit that I was not a huge fan of the snow. I seriously don’t know how people can live in it. Like, I was just frozen, ALL THE TIME. That is not fun!! I’m pretty sure my toes almost feel off at least 100 times, but its all apart of the experience right?

Anyways, I have had a lot of questions from people asking ‘but is it worth it?’. YES! YES! YES! If you have the opportunity to do anything like this, JUST DO IT! I cannot recommend it enough. It is a lot different studying overseas than just traveling overseas. You get to live like a local. See the more remote places you may never think of going to. You may also have a bit of an advantage as the aussie accent is pretty well liked overseas. In America, especially Buffalo, my aussie accent was quite distinctive and an awesome ice breaker – it definitely made meeting new people super easy! Although, it was super hard coming back to Australia where I was just like everyone else. I no longer had an accent. And when I say things like ‘tomato sauce’, ‘footpath’ and ‘rubbish bin’, I no longer get laughed at or corrected. Because apparently its ketchup, not tomato sauce! The amount of times this was told to me in Buffalo was insane! Who knew there was such a debate! Whose side are you on? Ketchup or tomato sauce?

It may be too expensive, too late (like you have already finished your degree) or just not your time to travel, but I think everyone should try and squeeze it into their busy lives. You learn so much from travelling. Stuff that you cannot learn from a book or lecture. It definitely helps to become more independent. But it does leave you with the bug. Yep. The travel bug. And it just doesn’t go away. But this is by far the best bug to have!

If you have any further questions or just need that ‘push’ to do something like this, or even any general travel questions, I would LOVE to hear from you! I love hearing about other peoples travel experiences. It gives me ideas and motivation for my next holiday! I just need a job and some money… Wish me luck! xx

do I really need a career?

I just want to start off this post by thanking everyone who gave my first blog a read. I am so overwhelmed with all the comments and messages I received from my first post. I seriously thought that maybe 5 people would read it, but I got like 10 (just joking, got a few more than that!!). Anyways, I am super excited for where this is going and I hope you are too!

Last week was my first week back at uni and I am already stressed. I have to admit, I have a pretty chill timetable and only have to be at uni twice a week, BUT this does not mean I have any less work (other education students can agree with this). I have spent this last week organising myself, writing EVERY single due date and important date in my diary and tossing up whether to buy that super expensive textbook or not (will I really use it? Let’s be honest here). My parents can contest that I am a very organised person, but I only stay organised to make myself feel better. Being organised makes me feel like I can do anything. That I am on top of the world. That I will get that HD. But in reality, this is far from the truth.

I work super hard to get decent-good grades. I am that student who spends hours trying to perfect that assignment. Finishing my assignments, a week before they are due (over-achiever), to give me enough time to proof read. This is the aim. This barely happens. But the thought is there. I am an almost last minute assignment writer. As in, I finish the assignment a day or two before it’s due. I’m sure most people reading this can relate to this!

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#inspirational

My views of university were challenged when attending college in America. Sorry to any American friends reading this, but college is super easy compared to university here in Australia. However, I found the courses I took to be a lot more relatable, interactive and enjoyable than the courses I have taken here in Australia. Although I don’t 100% agree with the American college system (all those general education courses!!), I think they have it right. Except the cost of college, that is just ridiculous.

BUT my college experience has made me appreciate university here in Australia a lot more. I am super privileged to be able to attend university and pursue the career I have always dreamt about. I’m sure many others (like me), complain, moan and repeatedly say that you’re going to drop out and just work full time (seems like the easier option). However, we should be grateful that we are given this opportunity and take every opportunity thrown our way. If you are able to study abroad – DO IT. If you’re able to volunteer for something relating to your course and career – DO IT. And just enjoy your university/college days. It will be over as soon as you know it and soon you will be forced to become a proper adult and actually work full time and save for a house, car, buy food, pay bills etc. It’s a scary world out there.

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there was just something about going to uni in the snow!

Good luck to everyone heading back to uni, school (you should be more than settled in now) or a new job – shout out to you KK, you go girl! XX